Last year, it would have been difficult for me to write about finding the light at the end of the tunnel. It was a trying period in our family’s life. It tested our faith and our family’s strength. But that year also showed us how resilient we can be.
Our three girls have been an amazing part of this journey. From Sofia, who acted as the “mini mom” while I was caring for Miguel in the hospital, to Elaina who never failed to let me know she loves me, to Olivia, who never missed giving us a good laugh whenever we needed it the most.
It seems that the worst is over…. for now. And in this period of relative peace and quiet, good news are pouring in for our family.
First, Miguel has been relatively healthy with no seizures and no hospital visits for about four months now. Recently, his ophthalmologist told us he doesn’t need his glasses anymore. All his lab tests came back normal. He’s been eating orally (of course, with pureed food) without much difficulty. He’s smiling and laughing a lot. He’s moving around.
Second, assistance from the government kept pouring in. It came to me as a surprise because I was not really optimistic about receiving help soon, being on waitlist for respite for the last two years. But they came. To give me some break from caregiving, they sent me a cleaning lady twice a week. Then, there will be respite for Miguel beginning next month. This will give me time to do the thing I wanted badly: to go back to my beloved volunteer work of helping people study the Bible. How I missed doing it! This will surely give me the mental and spiritual boost that I desperately need.
I can’t help but be reminded by the experience of God’s ancient servant, Job. In the Bible, it was described that he lost all his livestock and his servants. Shortly after, he lost all his children in one night. The last and probably the most challenging test of his loyalty to God was when he himself got so sick to the point of wanting to die. Yes, we may feel that our challenges come one after the other. I felt that. I couldn’t see the light at the end of the tunnel.
But like Job, I know in my heart that God is watching over our family no matter how difficult our situation may have been. I know this because, looking back, I saw that we kept our peace of mind. We stayed sane and composed. Our three girls didn’t falter in their own faith and spirituality, even in their very young age. And just like Job who was blessed with ten times more than he lost, I feel we’re receiving a hundredfold more.
For all these, I am thankful to God who really has never left us.
I guess we’re seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I’ve always known there is that light but I didn’t expect to see it this soon.